A Wise Heavenly Father

I wrote this a few days ago...

I've never expected so many people to be thinking of and caring for us as there has been throughout the past few weeks.  I have learned a lot about service and our Savior through your examples.  Each of you have truly been disciples of Jesus Christ as you have "mourned with those that mourn".

[    This is did not write a few days ago, this is added:    I was really struck yesterday with President Monson's talk.  He clearly taught how Heavenly Father is always there with us through our trials and challenges, even though there are times when we don't feel it as much or when we want to.  MANY times the way that he shows his love for us is through other people.  It's an interesting way to accomplish his work...but beautiful.  I wrote in my notes, "it is of VITAL importance that we act on the promptings that we receive to help and comfort and serve others.  It is often through the small, seemingly insignificant things that the Lord encourages us to do that is the means of blessing someone who is in great need.  For us to be on the receiving end of so much love and service has been wonderful. I feel your love and also have felt the love of God through it.  How comforting that has been.  I know God has been with us through this trial, this experience.  He has blessed us, as I hope he has blessed you, to know of his great love for all of us.  He loves Julia.   ]

I have found a book that has really spoken to me.  It describes many of my feeling through the loss of Julia.  The peace, the purpose, the fulfillment of God's plan in all of this.  Sometimes I really wonder how I can have this peace and understanding at this time - only through the grace of God!  Heavenly Father has been eager to bless and comfort and we have been eager to receive.  How could I go on not knowing that I will see my beautiful baby girl again someday.  And even that Aiden and Emmy will be with their baby sister.  A thought that also brings me such joy and hope.
 I desire so deeply that I could just go right now and pick up my baby and hold and cuddle her, but I know with the same depth that this is not how things are to be, that Julia has a different and great purpose to perform not on this Earth.