Growth

This week I have been reflecting on learning experiences. Regardless of what is going on in our life, there is opportunity for growth and progression.  There are always trials and challenges.  Even when things are running smoothly there are things to learn.
I remember feeling in the weeks and months before Julia's birth that there were things I was supposed to be learning but I avoided it.  Like I was "kicking against the pricks" in a way.  I felt that within myself and recognized it. I was having a hard time, feeling down and discouraged.  I chalked it up to pregnancy emotions but I definitely struggled with feelings of depression and it was really hard.  Sometimes change and growth is really difficult and sometimes it really hurts.  I knew then that I needed to make changes in my life but it just felt too difficult most of the time.  This experience with losing Julia has brought unavoidable change in me.  But not all unwelcome change, some of it feels quite good.  I'm becoming more the person, AND THE MOTHER, that I want to be.
              For instance, one thing that I feel even as I write in my blog is that I am becoming more comfortable with sharing my thoughts and ideas ...more confidence??...  I just feel more secure in myself and less concerned with the opinions of others.  That it's OK to simply be me.    I am also feeling very connected to my children, recognizing that each day is precious and I will never get it back

While I feel that most of the things that we learn in our trials are personal and for our own benefit, there is much to be said about the sharing of wisdom.  We can learn so much from each other if only we are willing to listen to and apply the wisdom we can glean from others' experiences.

All of this rings true with what we learn about the purpose of our mortal lives.  To come to this earth to learn and progress.  That our trials are given to each of us personally to teach us specific things that we need for our own eternal progression.  Ulitmately, to become more like our Saviour, Jesus Christ.